Rain falls like tears that burn as fire. Wounds bleed and hearts scream. Writhing in agony my soul waits for something more. something more than this Twisted reality. I'm not who I want to be. Not who I need to be. Falling slowly into the old rythym of the war drums. A fallen soldier looking for her way back home. Broken, scarred, traumatized by failing time and time again. Running full force towards the enemy only to be thrown down and beaten with the weapons I created. I run away, scared and ashamed, and once I gain the courage to chase after my hope and desire, I trip on vines that only want to suffocate me, drain every ounce of hope from my soul. HAVE FAITH, they tell me... and I try.... but Faith can only do so much. Believing help is on the way only restores hope when you see your captain racing towards you.
But what I see on the horizon always awakens my soul. Not only a Captain, but Royalty. My King has come to save me. With open arms He calls me to Him, embracing my soul, healing my wounds. A soldier should never abandon their cause, never lose sight of what they're fighting for. I am a Soldier of LIGHT, fighting the DARKNESS and although the darkness may triumph over me now, it's only won the battle. A war is happening and our King is Sovereign. Ruler of all, He will NOT bow before anyone. He is who this soldier fights for. I may not be perfect, but I am stronger with the help of my King. A Soldier, A daughter of the ONE who makes ALL things new. No Matter how many times I race into battle, my KING, my FATHER will protect me. He may watch me fall, but He will NEVER let me die! Let this be my battle cry. Though Swords may tear me to pieces, though I may fail time and time again, I will forever be a Daughter of the King. A soldier fighting with all her might against all that holds us down. Once a slave, now a fighter. I won't back down. I won't let you take me. I may fall, but I'm NEVER without help. I may lose hope, but I'm NEVER ALONE. Take note of this- I am a Soldier of LIGHT and Darkness can NOT exist where there is light. Let my passion, let my service SHINE through the darkness, blinding all who dwell there. Let my soul burst into flames and set the whole world on Fire with the hope I have.
From sparks to flames, from flames to ashes...the constant story of my life. I pray that the embers still glow and keep igniting over and over again until the day there's nothing more to burn. May I never let my hope turn to ash.
