Where do I go?

Ebony skies
blood-shot eyes
I see nothing but black.
My eyes are open
but where am I looking?
I can't see any incoming attacks.
Running blind
hands stretched towards nothing
I'm screaming for someone to save me
but hear nothing
I want to be held.
Want to feel someone care for me.
Want to stop feeling like I'm in charge of saving the world.
Not that I mind.
Being a superhero has its advantages..
friends
love
trust
respect
But it also comes with
fear
uncertainty
anger
pride
a severe lack of emotion.
If you don't care about anything, nothing can hurt you.
I'm broken.
Superhumanly broken
This kryptonite in my side is sucking the life out of me
I can't remove it
I've tried.
I'm desperate for something
I know what I need
but it feels so out of reach
I can yell and scream
but its all without meaning
I'm lost in this pit
my life's gone to shit
there's no way out of it
except to forget
that there was ever anything else

Shall I sit here and wait for someone to save me?
or should I wander through the darkness and find my way out
God, where do I go from here?
Reach down your hand and carve a path home.
Let me stay the same, but change my heart.
Mold me into who you NEED me to be
Force me to see things your way
I don't want to lose myself, God.
I have my own system
Maybe I'm just fucked up
Maybe I've never been right
If that's the case, God, break me
and show me your light
Erase the darkness from my sight
Take my black and make it white
Get me through this lonely night.
Iinto your hands, I place my soul
Because honestly, where else am I to go?
I'll fail you again.
You know I will
But you know my heart as well.
I'm not perfect
I'll never be
But I have you, Lord
and you have me.
So when I'm broken
scarred
defeated
I know you can cure me.....
I just have to reach for you....